With 2010 winding down I can't help but wonder what 2011 will bring. We are starting the year off with Dallas having surgery on the 4th. I know that everything will work out for the best. I know that she will be fine and everything will go on without a hitch, but I can't help but worry.
I am hoping that 2011 will bring about the end of this little tug of war over my daughter. She is starting to ask about her brothers again. I don't know what to tell her anymore. I wish that her father hadn't decided to come back into her life again. He either should have been there from the beginning, or not at all.
It drives me nuts because it has never really been about her. Others have said that it is me who creates all of the drama, but let me tell you it isn't me who is trying to get into his pants. Sorry, been there done that, DON'T want to go there again. What he has said about me and my daughter and done to us both is worse than what ANYONE else has ever done. The fact that she is almost 7 and there are family members on his side that still don't know about her is ridiculous. That can not be blamed on me. The fact that there are family members who have my number but don't try to call her is uncalled for. Don't run your mouth saying that I won't let her see you when you can't even pick up the phone. It's simple. Just ask for Dallas. Hang up when you are done! Seriously if you want to be a part of her life, then try. If you don't stop saying that I am preventing you from doing so when I have texted you pictures of her.
I don't want these people 2 years from now to decide to be a part of her life again. Either you are a part of her life or not at all. I WILL NOT put Dallas threw anymore pain and suffering because you only want to see her when it's convenient for you. And if you can call Jeff for a car part, then you can pick up the phone to talk to your daughter. It's that easy, at least it should be.
So one of my BIGGEST wishes for Dallas is for her to no longer have to go through all of this crap. She has a family who loves her and WANTS her. Those who don't are missing out. Parents are able to make things work for their children all the time, I don't know why this time is any different. And when I say make things work, I mean visitation and all of that stuff.
enough for now....
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Charter College
http://www.chartercollege.edu/content/career_programs/charter_college_programs_aas_medical_assistant.html
Beginning January 17th I will be attending Charter College and making a huge change in my field of study. I am going into the Medical field!! While I love Psychology here in the tri-cities there are very few jobs available for the amount of people who are obtaining this degree. While I have always had a fascination with the medical field I never believed that I could do it, so I never tried. Well, I am going to try. You can have more than 1 passion, so you need to follow your heart and do what you want no matter what the cost. : D So I am taking a stand for myself, and I am putting myself first. (well my kiddos are first, but I am not letting anyone else influence my decisions) I am super excited. I know that I can do this!!
Beginning January 17th I will be attending Charter College and making a huge change in my field of study. I am going into the Medical field!! While I love Psychology here in the tri-cities there are very few jobs available for the amount of people who are obtaining this degree. While I have always had a fascination with the medical field I never believed that I could do it, so I never tried. Well, I am going to try. You can have more than 1 passion, so you need to follow your heart and do what you want no matter what the cost. : D So I am taking a stand for myself, and I am putting myself first. (well my kiddos are first, but I am not letting anyone else influence my decisions) I am super excited. I know that I can do this!!
2010 was a fairly messed up year for me. I found out a lot about someone who I never thought would ever hurt me like they did this year. After almost 7 years together it just goes to show that you never REALLY know someone. I may have forgiven, but I will NEVER forget and if it happens again I am gone.
In watching an episode of Super Nanny I have decided that Nanny Jo needs to make a stop here. She could help not only with the kiddos, but with the rest of my relationships. Someone needs to give Jeff a dose of reality. He is no longer a child, but a man who is now a father with two children of his own. This means that you need to give some things up. You can't have your cake and eat it too. He is content to have me be here and cook his dinner and wash his clothes and take constant care of the kids. I know he hasn't had a great father figure growing up, but watching other fathers should give him a sense of what he needs to be doing. Nanny Jo would be awesome in telling him to get OUT OF THE SHOP, and come partake in parenting. I need help too ya know. You can't expect me to do it all and not need help..... no matter how hard I try I am not Super Women.
Enough negative, maybe some positive later :)
In watching an episode of Super Nanny I have decided that Nanny Jo needs to make a stop here. She could help not only with the kiddos, but with the rest of my relationships. Someone needs to give Jeff a dose of reality. He is no longer a child, but a man who is now a father with two children of his own. This means that you need to give some things up. You can't have your cake and eat it too. He is content to have me be here and cook his dinner and wash his clothes and take constant care of the kids. I know he hasn't had a great father figure growing up, but watching other fathers should give him a sense of what he needs to be doing. Nanny Jo would be awesome in telling him to get OUT OF THE SHOP, and come partake in parenting. I need help too ya know. You can't expect me to do it all and not need help..... no matter how hard I try I am not Super Women.
Enough negative, maybe some positive later :)
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