"blogging" block

It is so weird. Every time I log on to blog my mind basically goes blank.It's like instead of writters block I have blogging block.  I don't know what it is. It might be because I have SO much stuff going on. Between work and school and the kiddos I just want to sit down and watch the shows I have on my DVR and play farmville on FB.

It could also be because I want to be able to talk openly about my life and what is going on in it with my family, but I don't know exactly who is reading my blog. Dallas' bio dad isn't in the picture and this is his choosing, but I don't know what his family knows exactly. I don't know if what I write on here could be used against me later. This makes it difficult. Every couple of years he will get a wild hair up his butt and decide that he wants to see her again. Unfortunately everyone close to Dallas has come to realize that he isn't ever really, honestly, just interested in Dally. The whole thing is really sad. She now knows him and her brothers and some of his family, but doesn't have a relationship with them. She sees one Aunt every once in a while. It would be awesome if she could see her more, but I am so busy it is hard to meet up with her. She is an awesome Aunt!! I really need to make more of an effort.......

Ok so enough of that. I am going to try to blog more. I vent all the time to my friends, maybe I could just vent here...... maybe.

So my five year old is the cutest kid ever. She says some of the silliest things. Like today for example. She told me that she had an imaginary friend who was a boxer, really strong, and could lift our house in the middle of the night. Dallas told me that her imaginary friends name was... Malcom in the Middle. I couldn't help but laugh, and then I thought that apparently she watches too much TV. Every time I feel overwhelmed Dallas knows how to lift my spirits.

She and Hunter are just the best. Between Dallas making me smile along with her great hugs, and Hunter lighting up whenever I enter the room, I realize that I actually have it pretty good.

But that is enough for tonight. Much love!