"blogging" block

It is so weird. Every time I log on to blog my mind basically goes blank.It's like instead of writters block I have blogging block.  I don't know what it is. It might be because I have SO much stuff going on. Between work and school and the kiddos I just want to sit down and watch the shows I have on my DVR and play farmville on FB.

It could also be because I want to be able to talk openly about my life and what is going on in it with my family, but I don't know exactly who is reading my blog. Dallas' bio dad isn't in the picture and this is his choosing, but I don't know what his family knows exactly. I don't know if what I write on here could be used against me later. This makes it difficult. Every couple of years he will get a wild hair up his butt and decide that he wants to see her again. Unfortunately everyone close to Dallas has come to realize that he isn't ever really, honestly, just interested in Dally. The whole thing is really sad. She now knows him and her brothers and some of his family, but doesn't have a relationship with them. She sees one Aunt every once in a while. It would be awesome if she could see her more, but I am so busy it is hard to meet up with her. She is an awesome Aunt!! I really need to make more of an effort.......

Ok so enough of that. I am going to try to blog more. I vent all the time to my friends, maybe I could just vent here...... maybe.

So my five year old is the cutest kid ever. She says some of the silliest things. Like today for example. She told me that she had an imaginary friend who was a boxer, really strong, and could lift our house in the middle of the night. Dallas told me that her imaginary friends name was... Malcom in the Middle. I couldn't help but laugh, and then I thought that apparently she watches too much TV. Every time I feel overwhelmed Dallas knows how to lift my spirits.

She and Hunter are just the best. Between Dallas making me smile along with her great hugs, and Hunter lighting up whenever I enter the room, I realize that I actually have it pretty good.

But that is enough for tonight. Much love!

Randomness

It sure has been a while since the last time that I posted. I switched from days to nights at work and my family and I are still trying to get used to my not being home to tuck the kiddos into bed.

Anyway, I have started the whole coupon trend. I have added a few buttons and links to blogs that I have started following that have some pretty great ideas on the whole subject. I didn't realize how in depth the whole thing is, but all I can say is WOW!! If you know any good sites please let me know :)

So this week is a fairly hectic week for people with Thanksgiving and all. Dealing with crazy family members and fights over the last piece of pie. Remember that no matter what your family will always be there for you so don't get too upset if Grandma sneaks the last piece of pecan pie that you had been eyeing....  : D

feeling better

SO for those of you who don't know, I had my gall bladder removed tuesday the 3rd. It is weird, but I feel better. I didn't even know that there was a problem until I turned yellow when I was 33wks pregnant. It's nuts, but I almost feel like a whole other person. Like I didn't know what was missing until I had my gall bladder removed. It didn't look like there were very many stones, but they obviously were doing something to my body. I no longer crave sweets 24/7. That is a HUGE deal!! If you knew me, you would understand.  :)

Anyway, Hunter is fussing a little so I am going to go check on him. Maybe I will write a little more later!

Hunter is 3 months old

Hunter is 3 months old today!! He is doing so good considering that he was 24 days early so technically he should really be about 10wks old. He smiles all the time (except for this picture) and I have heard him laugh (but only in his sleep). Its sort of sweet actually. The first time I heard him laugh I didn't know what it was. I thought that there was something wrong because he was sleeping on my chest and I thought that maybe he couldn't breathe or something like that. It freaked me out!! But when I looked down he was smiling and then I heard it again.... he laughed. It was awesome!!

So Tuesday I had my gallbladder removed. I had problems with it during my pregnancy and discovered it when I was 33 wks pregnant. My issues could have been before my pregnancy, but it wasn't diagnosed until I was pregnant. I am really sore at the moment. I have been given pain medicine, but I am trying to not take it unless I need it because I was told by one nurse that I couldn't breast feed while taking the Hydro's. Another nurse said that I had to wait at least 24 hrs after being released from the hospital, and then I could breast feed because the dose isn't very high and I am not taking them very often. I don't know which one is right, but I don't really want to chance it. If the pain gets too bad, then I take one other than that I wait. 

I just found out that Jeff's sister in law is pregnant again. It really must be a baby boom because she is the sixth person that I know right now that is pregnant. There were nine pregnant ladies that I knew when I was preggo. It's crazy!! :) Congrats Mia!!

So here is the most recent picture of my kiddos. They are pretty precious, and Hunter is so mellow at this age compared to Dallas. She had colic pretty bad. She cried a lot and NEVER would go to sleep unless you took her out driving on a dirt road. Hunter on the other hand is pretty quiet. He can fall asleep sitting in my lap.   :)  

It is crazy to me that Hunter will be 12 wks old tomorrow. He was 24 days early so technically he should only be almost 9 wks old. If I hadn't turned yellow from the cholethesis who knows what would've happened. It still amazes me how different my two pregnancies were. I had a fairly normal pregnancy. I did go into premature labor due to stress, but other than that it was great. With Hunter, wow! I was hospitalized after itching for almost two months and not finding out what was wrong. I had to turn yellow to realize that something wasn't right.

What was wrong was that I apparently have gal stones. They were affecting my liver. My liver levels were over 500. Anything between 0-50 is normal. We found this out when I was 33 wks pregnant. They induced me the 4th of August. I was due the 29th. Hunter Glenn was born on his Great Grandpa's birthday. Everything turned out OK, but boy was it scary.

I feel pretty blessed to have two healthy children. They are amazing and I would do anything for them. I can't even remember what it was like before them.

what's new...

So I am trying to make my bog prettier.... and I am not sure exactly where to go to find some cute, but FREE layouts. If anyone has any ideas I would greatly appreciate them.

So, lets see it's been a little while since I posted. I have been pretty busy. I have been working and going to school on top of taking care of Dallas and Hutner. Let me tell you I have been a little stressed! I feel a little overwhelmed especially since I now have to work nights because my sitter got a job and can't really help out anymore. My sitter is my sister and I love her, but she really put me in a bad situation. I thought that we had a deal, but things change. I understand that. It still doesn't help me out very much.

Luckily, Jeff's mom and a few of my friends have stepped up to help me out. Dallas starting Kindergarten sort of messed things up a little. I hate the whole half day thing. Why can't ALL schools have an all day Kindergarten? There have been studies that show that kids benefit more from all day classes vs just half day classes. I geuss I can look at it as only 8 more months until summer break :)

I just found out that my cousin is pregnant again. CONGRATS CARISSA!!! I can't wait to meet both of your kiddos next summer when I come out to visit everyone. There sure will be a lot of babies out there!! If you haven't checked out her blog yet, you need to. She has a lot of great ideas from couponing to scrap booking. She is one very creative woman.

Anyway, I have got to get going. I can't miss my Opperant Conditioning class :)

children

I think the most precious thing is when a child smiles.... you know that sweet innocent smile. Not the one that says "I did something wrong and I am trying to hide it." Hunter is sleeping and he just keeps smiling. Every time he does smile I get this warm feeling, and I can't help but smile myself. My children are the best thing that ever happened to me. I love them, but let me tell ya... I love it when they go to sleep at night. By that time, I want to pull my hair out. :)

why....

So today I found out that a friend of mine was in a horrific car accident. His 12 yr old step daughter, his 12 yr old niece and his 6 yr old son were all in the vehicle. The two girls ended up dying.... I just don't know what to say. Life is too short. These girls weren't even official teenagers yet. It just doesn't make any sense.

They say that everything happens for a reason, but I am not sure about this one. How can you explain the reasoning behind two 12 yr old girls dying? Can someone explain it to me? I mean other people are getting a second chance to live because of these girls, but I just don't get it.

I do see the bigger picture. I really do, but that doesn't mean that I have to like it...... I am just shocked and saddened beyond belief. It makes you really open up your eyes and view everything around you. I hugged my kids a little bit tighter today after I found out.

Cherish the ones you love because you never know what tomorrow will bring.

untittled

Oh the elusive sleep..... having two children is definitely harder than having one. What I wouldn't give to be able to sleep right now, especially since my sister has BOTH of the kiddos. It's crazy, but I just feel wired, but at the same time I can't keep my eyes open...... Sleep..... how I miss you!!

The beginning

Hmm.... my first blog!! I have always wanted to blog, but never had the guts. My mouth tends to over run my you know what from time to time so I have always decided against a blog. But a girl needs an outlet to vent her frustrations right? Right!!

So lets see... a little about me. I am a 29 year old mother to a beautiful 5 year old girl who is a complete spitfire. WOW is all I can say. I love Dallas. She is very outspoken and independent. She is a girlie girl and a tomboy all rolled into one. She is very strong and actually ruffs up the boys her age.... so maybe I won't have to worry about the boys so much when she's older :) She is also the sweetest little girl who loves so much and I hope to never see her heart get broken.

I also just had a little boy the 5th of August. Hunter is a very mellow child... which surprises me considering the stories I have heard about his daddy. I hope that he continues to be so good! I love it when he smiles... and no I don't believe that it's gas so don't try to tell me it is.

I am also a full time student at WSU (GO COUGS!!) and this is my Senior year. YEAH!!!! I also work full time as a bartender/server. I won't say where I work, but I have been there for over three years. Hopefully after I graduate with my degree in Psych/Sociology/Human Development I can get a better job.

My boyfriend Jeff and I have been together for a little over 5 years. We have known each other for over 6. I love him a lot. :D I know totally cheezy, but eh.

As you can see I am a pretty busy person... my life is pretty hectic. You could almost say it's a crazy life, hence the name of my blog.