New Kids

NKOTB... Oh how I love these 5 sexy men from Boston. These guys got back together, and because of them I have met some of the most amazing people. These women I have met are crazy, independent, loving, intelligent, and some of the best friends a girl could ever have or want. 

Thank you New Kids for bring these women into my life. 

Blah

Blah. That's how I feel at this very moment. I feel as though I am at a crossing in my life and I don't know which way to go. Have you ever felt like that? I feel as though I am dragging a huge weight around and I don't know how to get rid of it. 

I should be happy that I am healthy and have two amazing kids. But after loosing my job with an amazing doctor, I just feel lost. To not be given a valid reason, or an explanation has left me feeling empty. It makes me want to lash out, but at what... I feel like there is no point. Who would I lash out at? The dr who hates confrontation? The other employee who raised her voice at me in front of patients? The CFO who lied to my face? The surgery lead who really had no reason for being there and who called me a liar to my face on multiple occasions? To say it was a hostile environment would be silly.... How can it be hostile when you have nurses coming in your office and yelling at you? Or having other MAs talking shit directly to your face... 

I should be happy that I don't have to deal with any of that anymore, but I am not. I helped build something that is going to be so successful and now that I am not a part of it, I feel a void. 

I know how I want to deal with the void that has been left, but I can't do that. When I was younger I would fill the empty feeling with booze and partying... When you get older you can't do that anymore. You're an adult, not a child anymore...

I will get over it with time. I just need to get out of this funk. I know I will with time...

It is weird. I feel different, I really do. When I turned 30 I still felt the way I did in my twenties. Now I am not saying I feel old now that I am 31, but I feel like it is a new me. I am doing things to make myself happy and not just to please other people. I feel just as young as ever (I mean, come on, 31 is not old), but it's like a wave of confidence has FINALLY washed over me. Every once in a while I will admit that I get a little nervous about what decision I should make about school, work, and every day life, but I know if I go with my gut that everything will work out for the best.

Is it weird to say that at 31 I am now feeling comfortable in my own skin? I hope it isn't, because I like where I am at right now.

New Beginnings

It is official. I have decided to go on a diet. I need to shed some pounds and tone up. My vice: mt. dew and gummy bears. Ugh! If I could kick these two little habits I would be golden. So I am gonna start by cutting back. As I learned when I was preggo with my kiddos, if I cut out the Dew all together I get the WORST headaches possible. And I have decided that there will be no more snacks while I am at school. Going to class at night has been hazardous for my waist :) Well, it really hasn't, but I am sure that it hasn't helped. I am one of a few that probably hasn't put on weight since I started, so I guess that is a start.

My goal is to loose at least 15lbs by Dallas' birthday which is the 23rd of May. I am sure that I can do this, I just gotta get my mind wrapped around the idea of working out. I need to put my DVD's to work. I have had Jillian Michaels 30day Shred, Carmen Electra's strip aerobics, and the Flirty Girl fitness tapes for a while. Some of these I have had for years, and they have either never been used, or used a few times. Heck, I stepped on my Wii the other day to do the Wii fitness and it said that it had been 292 days since I had been on it. WOW!! Guess I have been slacking off a little bit.

I figure that since I have been getting rid of some emotional baggage and I have been letting go of some much needed stressors in my life, that now it is time to work on myself and build my self esteem back up. It's nice having people tell you that you are beautiful, but if you don't feel it, then it is sort of an empty complement even thou that is not the intent of the person saying it to you.

So here is to Day 1.... :) Wish me Luck!!

NKOTBSB

Can NOT WAIT for this concert. LOVE LOVE LOVE these 5 sexy men.....
BSB isn't bad either, but I am a die hard NKOTB lover. BH for life baby!! Check out them singing in New York on New Years Eve NKOTBSB rocking New York on New Years Eve

Yes, I LOVE these men!!

Coupon Mania

So I am once again starting to get into the whole coupon craze. I have had some really good deals in the past, but sort of let life take over and stopped clipping. I was recently inspired by my friend A. She has gotten some AMAZING deals!!

If you haven't checked out this site http://thekrazycouponlady.com then you should. She gives you some really good tips and advice. She has several stores listed on her web page and totally breaks everything down for you. It's basically a no brainier as long as you follow her advice.

Also you should watch http://press.discovery.com/us/tlc/programs/extreme-couponing/ . This show is amazing!!

Does anyone out there have anymore tips/ideas?

tonselities

Tomorrow is the big day. Dallas has her surgery. We preregistered today, and she was so nervous!! She was so scared of getting blood drawn today. She even screamed before they put the needle in. Once it was in, she looked at us and said "oh that wasn't so bad."

Dallas is so funny. I am so glad that she is FINALLY getting this done. She needs it done. The poor girls tonsils have been huge basically her whole life. I don't know why they weren't removed when she had tubes put in her ears and her adenoids removed when she was two. After tomorrow she will finally be better. No more crying in the night because her throat hurts. Sometimes I can't help but wonder why Dr' s wait so long to take care of things like this. Irregardless, I am just glad that this nightmare will be finally over.