My nephew got into trouble the other day. My sister had to talk to the principal over it and everything. Now what was this horrible thing that my nephew did... he got into trouble for defending himself. Another little boy punched my nephew in the face and instead of hitting him back, my nephew pushed the other kid away. I am not one for violence. I don't think that it is ok to fight, but do I think that it's ok to defend yourself?? Yes, yes I do.
I don't know all of the details, but when my nephew told me what happened I was very upset. My sister came and told me while I was at work, and my opinion was the same as everyone else that was working the other night. My nephew should not have gotten into trouble for pushing away another boy who hit him. This other boy was not hurt, so I don't see how both of these boys can be punished in the same way. I understand that schools have a strict policy on violence, and I agree with this policy. Violence is never the answer, but what would've happened if my nephew hadn't pushed this child away. Would he have hit my nephew again?
I believe that in some cases the schools shouldn't be so strict with the kids involved in these altercations. Yes both kids laid their hands on each other, but pushing and punching are two different things. What do you think?
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Revelations.....
My life has been a little hectic as of late. I turned 30 in September, funny, I don't feel 30. I still feel like I am 21. I am still trying to figure out life and taking things one day at a time. I know that I am older because I am working on not letting the small stuff get to me. When I was younger I tried to please everyone, and it would make me cry when people didn't like me. I am not gonna lie, it STILL bothers me when others don't like me, but now I don't go out of my way to get them to like me. This is me. If you don't like me than you can **** off.
I am working on not having a big mouth, but on occasion I do let things slip. All I can do is apologize for it and move on. I still obsess over things and over analyze things from time to time, but who doesn't. Besides I am a psych major and a girl, if I didn't over analyze things something would be wrong with me :)
Lately I have had my trust broken and my world completely rocked. What happened shocked me to the core. I am working on forgiving, but I know that I can never forget. It's not something that I want to get into on here. It's just crazy that sometimes no matter how much someone says that they are not like the last person who hurt you, they really are. Maybe that's why they were friends in the first place. Hmm who know.
I have found that I tend to gravitate towards those who have similar traits. Sometimes I don't realize it right away. Sometimes it can take a few months, but by then you find yourself in a situation where you will constantly be reminded of them. While others may take years to show their true colors.... Either way, it still sucks. What can you do but try to break the cycle and move on.
Recently I was looking at my life and the people who have come in and out of it. There are former friends who I miss dearly whom I thought would be around for ever, but sadly are not. Some of these people I miss probably more than they know. We just sort of drifted apart, and now it feels like they are strangers. It feels like I never even knew them, and that is sad. Some of these people I could stay up and talk to for hours on the phone. I knew what they were gonna say before they said it. If I needed help they would drop everything to help me, and I would do the same. Its funny how you can be so close to someone, and yet still loose them. Some of those people I miss and I miss all the fun times I had with them.
Some of the people who have come into my life I never would've thought that I would call them my friend. Fighting over boys, and just really hating each other..... who would've thought that I would come to treasure our friendship. If someone had told me that I would be friends with some of these people back when I was in high school I would have laughed in their face and told them that they were high. Now I don't know what I would do with out these people. They are not just my friends, they are like family and I love them all.
My kids mean the world to me. I never want them to go through some of the hard things that I went through growing up. I never wanted my daughter to not know her father like I did. I wanted her to have a relationship with her father. I know that it will never happen. I have a lot of resentment in the whole situation. Things have been said on both ends and it's probably never going to be reparable, and I take responsibility for my part. I will not take all of the blame though, there were some very big wrongs done on his end too. Only he and I really know the truth about what happens. It's easier to point the blame and appear to be innocent, but honestly the only innocent one is my daughter. And because all of us adults acted like children she now will miss out. Even the other family members who said that they still wanted to be a part of her life have not called. Honestly I did try to keep her in contact with some of her family. I never even talked to them, only letting my daughter talk to them. After a few months of me being the one to make an effort... I stopped trying. They have my number, if she was important they would make an effort too. Talking to my former coworkers isn't making an effort. Sorry, but it isn't. And besides my daughter is 6 1/2, and it is sort of sad to find out that there are still family members of hers that have no idea about her. I can only assume that she isn't as important to her father as he tries to imply that she is. And that is really sad.
I know that I am not perfect. I don't try to be or claim to be. I am imperfect and flawed, but that's what makes me ME! I will never be a size 2, I will probably never win a million dollars, I can't change the past, but who cares. All I can do is be me. I don't need to please everyone and I don't need to apologize for being me. All I can do is be the best me that I can be. If you don't like it then who cares...
I am working on not having a big mouth, but on occasion I do let things slip. All I can do is apologize for it and move on. I still obsess over things and over analyze things from time to time, but who doesn't. Besides I am a psych major and a girl, if I didn't over analyze things something would be wrong with me :)
Lately I have had my trust broken and my world completely rocked. What happened shocked me to the core. I am working on forgiving, but I know that I can never forget. It's not something that I want to get into on here. It's just crazy that sometimes no matter how much someone says that they are not like the last person who hurt you, they really are. Maybe that's why they were friends in the first place. Hmm who know.
I have found that I tend to gravitate towards those who have similar traits. Sometimes I don't realize it right away. Sometimes it can take a few months, but by then you find yourself in a situation where you will constantly be reminded of them. While others may take years to show their true colors.... Either way, it still sucks. What can you do but try to break the cycle and move on.
Recently I was looking at my life and the people who have come in and out of it. There are former friends who I miss dearly whom I thought would be around for ever, but sadly are not. Some of these people I miss probably more than they know. We just sort of drifted apart, and now it feels like they are strangers. It feels like I never even knew them, and that is sad. Some of these people I could stay up and talk to for hours on the phone. I knew what they were gonna say before they said it. If I needed help they would drop everything to help me, and I would do the same. Its funny how you can be so close to someone, and yet still loose them. Some of those people I miss and I miss all the fun times I had with them.
Some of the people who have come into my life I never would've thought that I would call them my friend. Fighting over boys, and just really hating each other..... who would've thought that I would come to treasure our friendship. If someone had told me that I would be friends with some of these people back when I was in high school I would have laughed in their face and told them that they were high. Now I don't know what I would do with out these people. They are not just my friends, they are like family and I love them all.
My kids mean the world to me. I never want them to go through some of the hard things that I went through growing up. I never wanted my daughter to not know her father like I did. I wanted her to have a relationship with her father. I know that it will never happen. I have a lot of resentment in the whole situation. Things have been said on both ends and it's probably never going to be reparable, and I take responsibility for my part. I will not take all of the blame though, there were some very big wrongs done on his end too. Only he and I really know the truth about what happens. It's easier to point the blame and appear to be innocent, but honestly the only innocent one is my daughter. And because all of us adults acted like children she now will miss out. Even the other family members who said that they still wanted to be a part of her life have not called. Honestly I did try to keep her in contact with some of her family. I never even talked to them, only letting my daughter talk to them. After a few months of me being the one to make an effort... I stopped trying. They have my number, if she was important they would make an effort too. Talking to my former coworkers isn't making an effort. Sorry, but it isn't. And besides my daughter is 6 1/2, and it is sort of sad to find out that there are still family members of hers that have no idea about her. I can only assume that she isn't as important to her father as he tries to imply that she is. And that is really sad.
I know that I am not perfect. I don't try to be or claim to be. I am imperfect and flawed, but that's what makes me ME! I will never be a size 2, I will probably never win a million dollars, I can't change the past, but who cares. All I can do is be me. I don't need to please everyone and I don't need to apologize for being me. All I can do is be the best me that I can be. If you don't like it then who cares...
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